"Just About At"

In the midst of another year of change, the title of this painting seems as ambiguous to me as my future does. It might refer to my plans to ensure my stay here in New Mexico is "Just About At" an end. And that I'm "Just About At" the point to start something new. Or maybe it really means that I'm "Just About At" the end of my rope. But I suspect it's a bit of all those things, and more. "Just About At" 24" x 24" x 3" Silverleaf, Acrylic on Canvas Love, peace, and ambiguity, TONY By the way, Cartus is featuring Tony’s work in a mailing for Pride 2007. Click the animated GIF to open a PDF galley proof. Cheers

CURIOUS MINDS WANT TO KNOW...

Oh look, there's this cool little hole up in there.


Have a great weekend, guys!

Word of Mouth

Blah blah blah. Words are always exchanged 'n distributed about me. My comfortability is questioned by myself now b/c of high school gossip, 'n yadeeyada. I guess I can become too comfortable in telling certain people about me, which is my mistake, as people who I haven't told actually know about me. Word circulates in high school like heat from a fan.

One particular girl has lips that need to be stapled together until she learns manners 'n consideration. You see, this girl has lascivious feelings for me, which is actually flattering, but what pisses me off is how she fulminates in front of me in front of people, saying, out loud, things like, "I wish you weren't gay." She'd also do sexual gestures, which, again, is quite flattering, but it's not cute any more when her mouth is opened enough so I can count how many teeth she has.

But yesterday, she really tested my patience. I was w/ my friend, who I've known since 9th grade 'n is highly homophobic, after school to wait for our rides. While waiting on the sidewalk, a car passes by w/ a big mouth hanging out the passenger window, yelling, "If only you weren't gay!" The car drove off, leaving my friend to look 'n question me, "You gay?" This is someone who I wouldn't even bother to tell about me, b/c I don't think it'd be necessary at all, but it came down to it 'n I didn't want to lie. I told him the truth, 'n he gave me a hard time, preaching to me about how I'll go to hell, threatening to tell a set of friends who I've known for a while, 'n tell me he can't look at me the same way.

It hurt, really. I knew I'd come across a situation like this. I've mentioned before that I should just X out those who won't accept, b/c they won't do anything but bring me down, but nonetheless, I'm still hurt, b/c this is a guy I was fairly close w/, but now I've lost him, 'n changed on me, b/c he thinks I've changed on him. I couldn't even get the chance to explain to him my side or why I shouldn't be looked this way b/c he didn't want to hear it. The logical thing to do is just exclude him from my life, but having a history w/ him now invalidated makes me feel I want him to be the same prior to him knowing about me. But, oh well. I don't think it's worth the breath to try 'n speak w/ someone who just won't 'n don't want to understand due to immaturity 'n religious reasons, it's just sad it has to be a friend. I guess he's not my friend any more.

I will be looking for this girl to let her know that out-ing me is not her job, 'n not her fucking business to let others know.

Isaiah Washington Outted!

I'm sorry, I meant "ousted," as in no longer a cast member of Grey's Anatomy.

"Grey's Anatomy" Star Isaiah Washington's Contract Not Renewed

LOS ANGELES — Isaiah Washington has lost his job on the hit ABC medical drama "Grey's Anatomy," five months after creating a furor with his use of an anti-gay slur.

Washington's contract option was not renewed for next season, series producer ABC Television Studios said Thursday.

I guess rehab, re-education, and groveling penance before the god's of gayness weren't enough...

IMAGINATION

Be Loved...

Pride Month

So who says all gay men are stylish? Not Details magazine

Have you read this amusingly awful article in Details magazine, questioning why society at large assumes that all gay men have style? Calling itself the Myths of Homosexuality , the article goes on to dig out the usual stereotypes about gays, which is surprising considering that Details is obviously a magazine for gays, even if its team of journalists don’t realize it.

”As a walk through Chelsea demonstrates—in the spring, it's often a visual smorgasbord of pink polo shirts skimming potbellies, patch-bedecked denim jackets, and silvery sneakers worn with an 11-year-old girl's naive enthusiasm—the idea that homosexual males have more style sense than any other category of human beings is patently untrue. If you were picking teams, kickball-at-recess-style, for a fashion championship, who would you call first dibs on? Lance Bass, George Clooney, Alan Cumming, Jay-Z, Rufus Wainwright, or Brad Pitt?

Take your time.”

Ooh, that’s a low blow, pandering to tired stereotypes. What if the choice were between Peter Doherty, John Amaechi, Jack Black, Billy Bean, Larry King, or Esera Tualo? Men come in all shapes and sizes, gay or straight.

The article shows its true colours in the final paragraph with a particularly cringe-worthy remark from Michael Macko who I think must’ve thought he was being funny: "There have been so many times when I wished I was a lesbian and didn't have to care about what I wore," says Michael Macko, vice president of men's fashion at Saks Fifth Avenue. "Why can't I put on dirty sweat pants, a pair of Birkenstocks, a flannel shirt, and think, Which baseball cap will I wear today? It must be nice to buy all your clothes at outlet stores."

Meow! Saucer of milk for Mr Macko.

Age Appropriate

Signs of Spring 12-17

Rhododendron Papaya Punch and Azalea 'Arneson's Gem' Rhododendron Fantastica Rhododendrons Nancy Evans and Jean Marie de Montigue Lilac Rhododendron White Gold Rhododendron Nelda Peach